culture shock....oh yeah!

ok, aussy is so completely different from wht i expected it to be. let me first say i wasnt expecting much ok. the only thing i expected is for aussy's to be friendly and to hv tons of aussy friends. well, so much for tht hope. my first few days here at university college totally sucked. uni col is where i live, i know its called a college but actually its a hostel....crazy australians! so, we were divided into groups and i am the only asian in my group. it sucked!! none of the aussy's made an effort to talk to me or even to get to know where im from. i was starting all the conversation and after talking to me for 2 minutes they'd turn back to their cliques. so yeah, i was and am still pretty much alone. i cried so many times to mum and told her i wanted to come home. it was bad that she felt so guilty and felt extremely upset. she said i should gv it abt a yr and decide. well wht she says makes so much sense. i mean, i hv just got here, things arent gonna be a bed of roses for me being an international student and all. anyways, then i talked to prakash and saha, i tell you they both lifted my spirits with their encouraging words. best advice ever, " everytime you're feeling down just think of your goal. wht are you here to accomplish?" that just boosted my self confidence. i mean, i've worked my blooming ass off to get here. i'm not gonna let some stupid aussy's make me pack my bags and go home. sure i could do vet sc at upm but as saha said "do you want quality or environment?". well the lil me is saying well, quality is important but environment is equally important. wht's the point in studying in a place where you don't feel comfortable and not welcomed...anyways having all said and done i'm gonna get through this. i'm not coming back without my bvsc degree. it's been my dream since i was a lil girl and i've actually got a chance to make it come true. HELL YEAH I'M TAKING THE OPPRTUNITY AND STAYING ON!! anyways guys, just to let ya know, aussy isn't tht great a country. it's beautiful yes but it's never gonna be like home. there are plus points here like the freedom of speech and ppl dun gv 2 hoots abt wht you do or wear but malaysia seriously rocks!! it sure does hv it's up and downs but ppl are more hospitable there and the food rocks too!! i'm gonna end this post by saying MALAYSIA BOLEH!!

the best 2 minutes.

so yesterday i went to meet saree and we went over to her aunts place which was just few blocks down from my aunts. and once there they decided to take us to the mall as saree's aunt had something to do at the mall. so we went along and just walked and walked and walked. malls in aussy are just like the ones in malaysia except for the fact tht its white ppl and not asians and plus the clothes are way nicer. anyways then we were talking abt phone's and saree wanted to change her line to an optus line. so she wanted to finish up her credit. she called her friend in malaysia who was celebrating his bday and after 5 minutes her credit still hadnt finished. so i asked if i could msg prakash and she was like why dont you call. so i called prakash and got to hear his sweet voice after so long. argh......i miss him so much!! and that was the best 2 minutes of my life. well you know wht i've realised when ppl say long distance relationship is hard they don't mean tht you lose interest in tht person but emotionally its tough. i'm missing prakash like crazy and i hope he feels the same. anyways gotta run now! not literally though...oh well, good day!!

your queen,
:)

party of the yr!!

say whteva you want but the surprise farewell party thrown for me by my darling frens and my absolutely sweet boyfriend gains the title party of the yr in my books. it was so sweet of them to actually take the effort to cook stuff and attend the party. and the best part is, i've known these girls since i was a school kid. we practically grew up together. i don't think any other person in this world knows me better than these guys. namely michelle, ee may, davina, abby, jenna, koheela, maya, sheep, yamuna and anits. off course then there are the other awesome ppl whom i just got to know in college namely the G8-ers, kailash and adrien. also not forgetting my darling boyfriend who put together this whole party. prakash you're truly a gem and being the idiot i am i tool so long to realize that. well i've realised finally. thank heavens!! i was so touched that my ex classmates and kai actually came all the way from kl for this party. thanks guys!! you totally rock. after yesterday i truly realized that i'm so lucky to be blessed with such amazing sincere friends. i know we've had our up's and down's but to me that's how you really get to know a person truly. so i'll be in melbourne and all but i'll still keep in touch k. through msn and hotmail and definately via blog. thanks so much guys and i hope to see ya'll in june. :)

a tribute to kai@hand

since my dear friend kailash claims that he doenst get enough recognition on my blog, i solemnly dedicate this post to him. its written with the greatest amount of love and respect a friend should deserve. *chokes and dies* ;)

K - kharismatic....only in a kinky leather suit
A - a total ass
I - idiotic to the max
L - loud and obnoxious
A - attractive in a weird way
S - stripper for hire
H - hairy ( but nothing beats prakash)

well dear kai, with this post everybody's gonna know the real you no? well darling take care and i'll see you on saturday. if you guys are wondering what kai's doing on saturday, well he's doing a strippy at my party! *meow!!*

anger management 101...what shit?

ever felt like stranggling a person, or shoot them down, or run them over with a car, or just give them a huge punch on their face when they irritate you...well you better think again unless you wouldnt mind getting a lawsuit. well, how do you actually deal with anger? what is the most efficient way to deal with anger? is it to count until 100?, to lock yourself up in the room, blast the music and scream?, watch cartoons?, just forget about it?. well, áfter 19 years of existence on this god forsaken planet i've come to realize that the best way to deal with anger is not to get angry. in order for you not to get angry, don't care too much, have an open mind and always remember that all human beings on planet earth are apes. they're just screwed in their own ways ok. but definately its easier said than done no? even till this day i can't let things go easily. forgive fine, but never forget. that's just the way i am and probably because of that i'm quite temperemental. nevertheless, by not getting angry is definately the way la. you save lots of energy which could be of better use. plus you will look much much younger once you've cut down on the frowning (don't wanna look like a bull dog do you now?). though, an occasional rage would be good as you get your adrenaline pumping and give those lungs of yours some exercise. i'm sitting here writing this article while waiting for my dear boyfriend to come visit me after his football practice. btw he's 2 hrs late. well wht better alternative way of dealing with anger than to write an article on one. *grunts* later days....

your queen,
:(